In addition to my
current reading project, one of my ongoing goals is to re-read books from my high school English classes that I feel I was too immature to enjoy at that time. I feel strongly that reading is ruined for many high school students by forcing on them books they are not ready to enjoy. For me, the first of these books is
Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky.
Crime and Punishment was part of the curriculum for my 12th grade English class. Not only did I feel I was not quite getting it, I did not even finish the book. This is partly due to it being a difficult book to read, but also because I had to read a book for a term paper (for the same English class) at the same time. I decided getting my term paper done was more important. Although difficult, I did enjoy the story of
Crime and Punishment and knew even then that I would revisit the book some day. I finally decided to take up this challenge and I finished the book this past December.
The story focuses on a Russian student named Raskolnikov. Raskolnikov believes that certain people (himself included) are destined to do great things, and therefore should not be constrained by the same laws as everyone else. To prove his theory he sets out to commit the perfect murder.
Crime and Punishment follows his crime and he consequences he and those around him face as he deals with his guilt.
When I mentioned earlier that the book was difficult, do not misunderstand me. I say it is difficult primarily because of the Russian names and places. This is compounded by the characters being referred to by either their first or last names interchangeably throughout the book. The story itself is easy to follow and is very entertaining.
[Warning, possible spoiler below.]
When I set out the read
Crime and Punishment again, I was hoping to find at least one aspect of the book that escaped me back in high school. I was successful. After committing his crime, Raskolnikov becomes very ill, both physically and mentally. In high school I interpreted this as manifestation of his guilt. He felt guilty, so he got sick. This time around I realized this was not the case.
According to his theory, Raskolnikov's superiority to others means that he should not feel guilt over his crime. Instead of throwing out his theory, Raskolnikov comes to believe that he is not one of the elite that are beyond the law. Instead, he is just like everyone else in the slums of St. Petersburg. It is this realization of being ordinary that induces his sickness and pushes him to the edge of madness.
It is exactly this type of re-interpretation that motivated me to pick up
Crime and Punishment again after so many years.